Adventures of a Visionary chapters 8/9/10 Final
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Chapter 8
As far as being a Visionary is concerned in terms of ones understanding of Life and people around one, as I've explained this becomes very very sharpened and heightened and at times this can be rather embarrassing. For example it's not a comfortable feeling to meet people and understand exactly what people are thinking about you and yet you see this is the heightened perception which I experience very often and it gives such insight in people's thoughts that I'm able to appreciate very clearly what they are thinking at that particular moment that I am interacting with them. And of course this is often quite embarrassing and disconcerting because people are not always thinking very nice things- people are quite often thinking things that are very unpleasant or rather mean or rather trivial and so much that is very petty and jealous and nasty can enter into their mind because you are a Visionary that this experience has often caused me to physically squirm and wish for the thousands time that I wasn't a Visionary. However it seems to be the way that many Visionaries have to approach Life and I just hope that the many Visionaries have been given the sense of humour that I've been given because this is the way in which I cope with these rather awful situations- and it's not helped really by the fact that you know so clearly that these people have no idea whatsoever that you are understanding what they are thinking and that if they did appreciate this they would be in such a state of embarrassment that they would never be able to look you in the face again. So this situation taken to its conclusion realy does allow you to see the state of affairs as extremely funny and really one has to see it as funny- because Jesus and Mary have always explained that this sense of compassion and humour needs to be so much a part of Life because it gives us a balance to Life, gives us the understanding that after all this is human nature and human nature will finally be uplifted way beyond this kind of pettiness. And at present one has to absorb it in a way which one can cope with to see that if people really did understand what they were doing or how they were behaving or thinking then they would wish with all of their hearts not to behave in this way. A further embarrassment of being a Visionary is the way in which one is led almost to understand that one should behave in a certain way and if one doesn't conform to this one is really behaving in a way that is not acceptable and one is in fact becoming rather irresponsible because Visionaries after all have to belong to a category which is acceptable and there are supposed rules and guidelines and ways in which they should behave. Now quite honestly this has always been a very difficult part of my experience of being a Visionary because all my Life has led me to believe God has made me as a very unique individual and if I am to develop my Life fully and in the way that He wishes then I ought to express my individuality in a way that I feel true and normal and sincere. So as far as I am concerned to pretend to be anything or anyone other than oneself would not be true, would not be honest, would not be sincere and quite definately, and to many people's concern, I refuse to do it. I refuse to be moulded into a caricature of myself, and I prefer to live my Life in the way that I wish to live my Life In a way that understand to be good and honest and sincere and in a way that I feel my individuality can express itself.Now if this appears to be at times rather unconventional, if my lightness and my sense of humour and my way of being sometimes is a little 'off beat' is not to people's liking then very sadly I'm unable to offer tham any alternative, because this is me. This is me as a Visionary, this is me as a person, this is me as a personality and this is the me that I feel to be true. As such if I choose to be somewhat unconventional in the way I dress because I choose colours which are bright and light and I like clothes to be easy and simple and I appreciate colour as a part of Life and its vitality and its beauty then this really is my choice. The fact that I have now decided to be a Visionary who is not in any way trying to let people feel that the Vision must be pushed out is letting me feel very much more relaxed about the whole situation because I feel now that there is no way in which I am going to offend people because people who know me, people who like me, people who appreciate what I am trying to do and understand it to be sincere will understand me to be me and know that if I were to be anyone else this would not be true. So I'm thankful for this now and I know that as Jesus and Mary explained to me this really is the way in which They wish me to develop the Vision because people who are able to understand what I am saying will also understand the Vision.
Chapter 9
All of us hoped that Life would be good to us, Life would be happy and peaceful and adventurous to some extent not without its way of showing
us that we've lived our Life for some reason that seems meaningful and that we've been able to relate to people in a meaningful way and we've been able to provide ourselves with an understanding of Life which makes some kind of sense. I'm sure this is
the way which all of us to go through Life, this is the way anyway that I hope to continue my Life and I hope also that when I meet God, if there is a God and I'm being led to understand very clearly that there is a God, when I meet Him I hope that He will
be able to explain to me many things that at the moment I don't really understand, and if I did understand them I know that if I did I would be a much better person than I am now. I would be a person who was able to feel absolutely secure and knowledgeable
and I'd also know that Life had an absolute meaning. At present I have to go through Life in a way which is rather tricky at times because I know I don't have all the answers. I know that I am trying to understand in a very simple way a massive phenomena which
is Life itself, because in many ways this is why I'm here. But also I know that as I move through Life, Life's becoming for me a situation that I find myself in and the situation which really does each day let me understand that there has to be some meaning
beyond that which I am seeing, because I'm seeing many things that don't make sense, many things that are not good many things that I'm not happy about and the Vision I experience each day of my Life explains to me that Life will begin to make much more sense
as the World enters into a very definite development which will let those people who can be enlightened see very clearly that there is a God. There is a God Who is a Loving God, there is a God Who is in control of the World, there is a God Who is in control
of Life and this God is prepared to show people who wish to know the Truth exactly where the Truth lies. He wishes to show people who are able to believe very simply in Love that Love is the answer to every sickness that the World is seeing today. God
is the Being Who knows that there are people in the World who are Good, who are Loving, who are trying to live their Life in a loving way, who are seeing that this Love is being ridiculed, exploited, manipulated made use of in a way that is so devalued that
the whole concept of Love is becoming so minimized and so dreadfully thwarted and stifled within the World that the World is really losing sight of the actuality of Love in such a concrete way that we're seeing such hatred and greed and selfishness that this
is making the World a place which is so ugly that it is really no longer to be understood as any kind of Real and True place. Now this Vision that I am developing with and which is being explained to me in a very integrated way is explaining very clearly
that God as the Supreme Being understands everything that is happening in the World and He wishes to let people who are able to trust Him to Trust in His Love and His power and His Supremacy and His prerogative to do things finally in the way that He wishes.
He wishes to let people who are enlightened to understand a Way of Love which will be able to make the World return to a very complete understanding of the Power of Love because this Vision that I experience is explaining to me in great detail the way in which
Love will finally reveal itself as a Power from God which can be used in order to set the World free from the terrible illusory understanding of itself which it exists in at present .And people who are able to move with this final development of Life
will be offered a Way of Living which is so beautiful, so peaceful, so happy, so free, so bound to Love and to Goodness and to a really True understanding of Life that they realize that they're moving very simply, realistically, concretely, phyiscally and
also in a way that is linked with spirituality in a very integrated way into a New World which is very physical very much bound to physical reality but this physical reality will be integrated completely into a Spiritual Reality so that this New World will
involve people who live in a beautiful harmonious state which will be a completely perfect ending of Life on Earth.- this is the Vision that I continue with because to me this is the most beautiful Vision that could be offered and if I refuse it I feel
that I would be betraying everything that I hope for in Life everything that I hope for everyone in Life and I would be denying my instinctive and basic hope in a God of Love Who would wish to return the World to this beautiful state and I know that as long
as I live I hope that I will understand that the Vision that I receive is a True Vision because all I can say is that to me it makes perfect sense and to me it is a Vision of such Beauty, Truth, Hope, and Peace that anything less that it would somehow seem
inadequate.
Chapter 10
It really is rather difficult to explain what it is like to be a Visionary because I know that first of all people are not really terribly interested in understanding about the Life of a Visionary. Most people think that it is something which is not for them and yet you see I feel that I ought to at least try to let people understand something about my own experience, because I realize that many people are trying to make some sense of Life,make some sense of their own Life and make some kind of sense about the awful mess that we are seeing in todays World. And I feel that if I can put my own experience before them in quite a simple way a way which isn't pretentious, a way which is trying to keep a sense of balance and lightness so people can relate to it and feel that I'm fairly normal and straightforward. And I'm trying to let them understand the experience in a way which is as normal as possible and these people will realize that the experience in itself is very little different from most other experiences of Life, because Life itself is a journey into the unknown and if people can begin to realize that the experience of a Visionary is one which perhaps goes a little further into the unknown in order to try to let the unknown become a little more known then this experience may be helpful to people and people really understand that the Vision itself is trying to be helpful and the Vision itself is offering a way through Life which is very helpful.
I don't understand it all, I don't understand why it has happened in the way it has happened and I don't really expect that I will ever understand any more than I need to.Because I realize now that Life has to be lived through in an individual way and people have to live their Life in their own individual manner and people have to come at Life in the way that is unique to them. And I just hope that this experience of mine will be able to help those people who are trying to develop their own Life in a way that is individual and sincere because I feel sure that this is the right way,this is the only way, and I feel that we have to accept the responsibility for our own Life in terms of the way we live our Life and nobody else can really do this for us. So I am putting this experience before you simply to let you understand that in all sincerity as far as I've been able to I have tried to live my Life up to now through this experience in a way that I have thought to be right and despite the problems, despite the difficulties, despite the discomfort and the embarrassment I feel that the Way it has led me has been a very True Way. I also understand that this True Way which will be the Way which can help people very much as this Final Event develops in the World and if this is so then I really do feel that it has been most worthwhile and I'll be content to understand that everything about it has been absolutely necessary.
Maureen
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